It looks very even on the surface very solid and soft at the same time, but it was very hard to walk on it or may I say in it. As I grew tired and exhausted I looked ahead to see my bath, I found none, to see where I'm going but all I saw was miles and miles of endless sand.
You do not seem to know where you are going and you think you will fall on your face dead tired at any second, but you don't, you just keep on walking breathing in and out hoping you find comfort and rest along the way or may be you wish for that journey to end with all its beauty and despair. Somehow I thought that journey was nothing more than my life.
Thirsty, hungry, and burnt by the sun I searched for water, it doesn't seem to be anywhere, how about those little plants? How do they find water? They all drink, they all survive, they all know how, except me, I felt venerable, and I felt insecure.
What about that big long cactus? It looks very moist and cool, I bet if I hold it, I'll manage to squeeze the water out of it somehow, I tried to hold it I felt like hugging it actually for its cool temperature but every time I touch I get hurt by its thorns, like jealousy, every time you try to carrase it hurts you, and the more you try to, the more you get hurt only to realize after going through lots of pain that was not as cool and moist as I thought and it
Only had few drops of juice to offer me, not enough to redeem my thirst. It made me wish I didn't go there.
I sat down to rest from that painful experience reflecting on what happened, what I did wrong. Instead I noticed traces on the sand, they look like footsteps of a little animal, and I followed it to see it was a lizard. Running very fast to avoid being burnt by the hot sand, running between the bushes hiding from the sun,
Feeding on insects. I though to myself, man what a life! To be running afraid all your life, feeding on the misery of others, I thought then I heard a voice replying: hey buddy, I do what I have to do to survive even if it means feeding on little weak beings, we all run around in our deserts scared and doing whatever we need to do to survive even if it means hurting others. I looked to where the lizard was I saw it running away in a hurry.
Amazed by what the lizard has told me I continued my journey into the unknown, but I couldn't help thinking... life doesn't have to be that way, there must be a way we can survive without contaminating the integrity of others, but how? Its the only way that makes sense in our time,''eat or be eaten'' ''I'm not taking the blame for this'' how many times do we hear or use these phrases? Pretty damn much
I was sad and down by that fact but still I kept on walking until I saw a palm tree, I smiled, may be things don't have to be like the lizard said after all, here I have an example of the opposite;
A palm that long in 10 to 15 years old, they grow very slowly patiently until it reaches maturity and produces the sweetest fruit on earth ''dates''. So things don't have to be the lizard's way when life is tough,
The palm has proven me that out of the harshest conditions can emerge the sweetest things as long as we r patient and stand tall, meanwhile the lizard is going to eat bugs running scared all its life, so! Yes we have a choice and we also have to bare the consequences of that choice.
My journey reached the middle of it when I got hold of a constant base of walking and balancing in an arithmetic manner, it now became a habit. Looking up the hill in front of me I saw big black balls rolling downhill heading my way, as they rolled down speeding the picture clearer to me, these are not balls, they are the desert weeds or they are called sometimes, the traveler.
Believe it or not these are actually weed rolled up in the shape of a ball to travel with the wind everywhere, hopefully where water and food are, wait a minute, food? Water? Hey I'm a traveler and I have no routes I'm freeeeee, I said that as I started running like a mad man, I must be going out of my mind but it feels great, water and food here I come, freedooooom. So I ran with the traveler shifting left and right with the wind. Man i must running for ages; I'm extremely tired and dehydrated
I used up all my energy, I'm far away from my original course and still there's no water or food, I fell down on my knees in disappointment and realized that it was a big mistake to run away from the course of my journey feel exactly like the traveler now, I have no routes and I belong no where, this is the first time I felt alone in my entire journey. Now I cant see anything I can barely crawl I cant help thinking that I'm not gona be abler to complete my journey and I missed out on a lot of things in my original bath.
But I kept on moving somehow I was not about to give up the rest of my life because of one mistake. After sometime I saw water on the horizon, oh yes, its water I summoned the little energy I had left in me and ran to where I saw the water but nothing, the water is still so far, and the more I walked towards it, the further it from me, its magical water, false hope, it was a mirage.
I remember lying on my back at that moment thinking it was false hope that got me in the end, specially when I needed it the most, I'm so tired, I see vultures hovering in the shy, I think I'm going to die now.
Suddenly the vultures flew away and clouds began forming in the sky, yes rain, a lot of rain, enough to make a lake on where I was lying down so all I had to do to drink is to open my mouth, and I did, I took advantage of the opportunity I was given from heaven, just when I thought I was dying, I get a second chance, it looks like I'm gona reach my destination after all.
It kept on raining and I kept on dancing about in the rain until it stopped, and I stopped dancing to and began my journey once again I'm happily walking now, I'm all charged now, with water and food. Far ahead I found an oasis, it must have formed after the rain has fallen. The oasis looked very beautiful, its no like anything I've seen before, it seems like she was dragging me to her like a fool, like she was my lover opening her arms waiting for me invited me in. the journey can wait now I have to be with her now and I'll be on my way very soon,
But I was wrong once again, she fed me, shed me sheltered me through hard times, supported my life, gave me happiness. I couldn't leave if I even wanted to, so I stayed with my beloved,,,, oasis
Looking back I saw what the rain has done, the sand was not too hot anymore, and the plants were green and they bloomed with beautiful flowers, the lizard finally went out of the shade because it was not hot anymore outside, the cactus was greener than ever before and it had baby cactuses all around it, the palm also had its share of productivity it beard a lot of sweet dates. The traveler settled down somewhere, who would have figured? Also there are green leafs blooming all over its weed, as for the mirage, ha, its all gone and I don't think it ever return.
With a big smile on my face I thought, oh man all this beauty is because of the rain I'm grateful it rained.
Lying on my back leaning to a palm tree I asked myself, how about my destination? Where was I going? Then I realized there was no destination, it was all about the journey and how I've lived it.
I'm contempt then I rolled over.... and..... I died... after the rain has fallen.
Mohamed shaheen
A. K. A.
Zamfal
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